I've had recent dreams about him, remembering him from when I last saw him. Middle school. We got into a fight & I told him that I hated him and would hate him forever.

I've been thinking of him and I can't stop it. I've tried and I don't know why I got excited when he added me as a friend. I wanted to be a friend to him and we started talking and he looked nice. Good. I wanted to fuck his brains out. Is it wrong that I still want to? Even though he has a girlfriend, and seem really happy, I'm looking at his damn facebook page and going, "Yeah, I fucked this up."


I find myself wondering how big he is and wishing that I had his head buried in between my legs. Thinking of how I would have loved to have been experimenting with him and using my bondage tape. But a las, he now has a girlfriend. Damn him and Damn Drop Dead Fred.